Why Do I Feel Like I Am Watching Myself From Outside My Body?

Hannah Bingler LPC, LAC.

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I received my Masters in Counseling from the University of Denver in 2020. I have worked in a variety of settings, including inpatient, outpatient, and private practice. I use a holistic approach rooted in psychodynamic therapy. I am familiar with CBT, DBT, Motivational Interviewing, Reality Therapy, Gestalt Therapy, and Person-centered approaches. I am trained in Accelerated Resolution Therapy and use it regularly to address issues that clients present with. I work with my clients to help them understand and address the roots of their presenting problems.

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Have you ever felt detached from reality? As if you’ve floated beyond your skin and are existing suspended in the air, watching your physical self? It sounds like something out of a sci-fi movie, but it’s common and it has a name: depersonalization-derealization.

Up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization/derealization episode in their lives. When episodes occur regularly and increase in intensity, it can be the sign of a depersonalization-derealization disorder, which is a dissociative disorder. Only 2% of people meet the criteria for such a diagnosis, and women are more likely to develop it than men [1].

What Is Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder?

Depersonalization-derealization disorder is when you regularly feel like things around you are not real, and that you’re floating outside or above your body. Some people report that depersonalization-derealization episodes carry the sensation of being in a dream.

Most people pass through some type of depersonalization or derealization during their lives without any impact and without developing a disorder. If the episodes keep reoccurring or disrupt your ability to function, you likely have depersonalization-derealization disorder.

Depersonalization-derealization disorder can affect relationships, work, and daily activities, but effective treatment does exist.

infographic detailing the reality and common symptoms of depersonalization-derealization disorder, including emotional numbness, distorted perception, and a dream-like state.

Symptoms of Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder

Symptoms for depersonalization-derealization disorder typically start to manifest in teenage years or early adulthood. Episodes can last for hours, days, weeks, or months and can fluctuate in intensity during that time.

Symptoms include:

Feeling like you see your body, feelings, and thoughts from outside of youFeeling like you’re not in control of what you say or how you move
Believing that your limbs are twisted or larger or smaller than usualEmotional and physical numbness
Concern that your memories are not your ownFeeling like people and things around you are not real
Feeling emotionally disconnected from loved onesSeeing surroundings as blurry, colorless, or out of shape
Seeing things as two-dimensionalFeeling confused about time and the proximity of events

What Causes Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder?

Further research is still needed to understand the exact reasons someone develops depersonalization-derealization disorder. But, factors that are common triggers for the disorder include [2]:

Substances can increase the risk of having a depersonalization-derealization episode that lasts a short time, or they can increase the likelihood of developing the full disorder. For people who have experienced either an episode or the onset of the disorder, the symptoms are confusing because they mimic many of the effects of the substance itself.

Hallucinogens, cannabis, and ecstasy have all been linked to depersonalization-realization disorder when ingested [3]. Neurotransmitter systems such as glutamate NMDA receptor antagonists, cannabinoids, and opioid receptor antagonists have also been associated with the disorder [4].

Is There Treatment For Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder?

Yes, treatment is available for depersonalization-derealization disorder, and is concentrated around psychotherapy (talk therapy). Currently, no medications have been approved to treat the disorder specifically, but there are medicines to treat some symptoms or underlying mood disorders such as depression that are common with depersonalization-derealization disorder.

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT), and psychodynamic therapy are the main treatment approaches. They focus on managing and reducing symptoms, learning techniques to be grounded in reality, coping mechanisms to deal with stress, and identifying other mental health conditions. Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) may also be used to safely confront past trauma and alleviate its effects.

People treated for trauma-based dissociative symptoms function better and have fewer residual symptoms than those who go untreated [5].

An infographic illustrating the primary triggers of depersonalization-derealization disorder like trauma and substances, alongside proven healing pathways like therapy and IOP.

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Sources

[1] National Alliance on Mental Illness. (2026). Dissociative Disorders. nami.org.

[2] Singh Wilkhoo, H. et al. (June 2024). Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder: Etiological Mechanism, Diagnosis and Management. Discoveries. 

[3] Simeon, D. et al. (October 2009). Is depersonalization disorder initiated by illicit drug use any different? A survey of 394 adults. Journal of Clinical Psychiatry. 

[4] Salami, A. et al. (November 2020). Symptoms of depersonalisation/derealisation disorder as measured by brain electrical activity: A systematic review. Neuroscience & Biobehavioral Reviews. 

[5] Brand, B. et al. (June 2011). Where Are We Going? An Update on Assessment, Treatment, and Neurobiological Research in Dissociative Disorders as We Move Toward the DSM-5. Journal of Trauma & Dissociation.

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